Friday October, 26th 2012

Everyday it seems like a different song is stuck in my head and today for some reason it is "Begin Again". I guess it's because I have been listening to that cd 24/7. The song says, "And you throw your head back laughing like a little kid and it's strange that you think I'm funny cause he never did. I've been spending the last 8 months thinking all love ever does is break...and burn...and end, but on a Wednesday in a cafe, I watched it begin again." Through this song, I have realized that there is hope that someday, love will "begin again" for me, but for right now, I have to wait. I know my blogs talk about mostly the same subject, but that's what I know the most about and if I blog about something, it gets it off my mind. There are a million things floating around in my mind right now, but this is the thing that stands out the most. So, in this blog I am going to talk about what is floating around in my mind on that day.

Sunday October 28th, 2011

High School...the place filled with nothing but drama, where friendships/relationships are broken, where you're supposed to find yourself, and where I don't want to go tomorrow. To me high school is the worst place on earth to go to. I really don't want to go tomorrow because people that go there insist on making my life harder. They see my happiness as a target and do everything in their power to find the source of that happiness and destroy it. Sometimes I wish I was online schooled so I wouldn't have to deal with people because to me, being at work keeps me sane, it is my escape from the school world. At work I  am accepted by everyone I work with. If I am having a bad day, they know how to make it way better. If I could go without some people in my high school my life would be so much better, but I've only got a year and a half left, so hopefully after that, I won't have to deal with them at all!(:

Wednesday, October 23 2012

My other blog is required for class, but today, I just felt the need to create a new one because I have had alot on my mind thanks to Taylor Swift's new RED cd. The song "Trouble" talks about a girl who dated a guy and all he was was trouble and she knew it from the start, but she dated him anyways. I did the same thing, so that song means alot to me. That song has been stuck in my head and won't get out, so I figured if I blogged about it, it would get out of my head. It seems like that has worked with everything else I have blogged about. Anyways the song says, "You never loved me, or her, or anyone." and the guy that said that he loved me never really did. He just said he did. I see him everyday and I have been through a series of emotions to where I have wanted to cry everytime I saw him, to wanting to hit him, to wanting to throw up everytime I saw him, and now it's like I don't really care anymore. If he really loved me, he would've treated me right and wouldn't have acted the way he did. My best friend and I were texting about this same thing last night and we were trying to figure out why no guy wants us, and we can't figure out a reason. We just don't understand why guys pick us to "prey" on and act like they love us when they really don't. They're all "Trouble".  If you feel the same way, comment below and tell me your story, I would love to hear it and maybe we can actually figure this out.